Today is very special to me. For one, my blog is going live today! I'm so excited and nervous! I'm not sure where this journey is going to go but I'm so open to receive whatever blessings God has for me. I'll do a post about how this all came to be, soon; but for now, let me thank a few people who read and gave me honest feedback. To my sister Chetoria, thank you for your encouragement. You were more excited than me lol I love you always! To one of my best friends Mike, thank you for your honesty! I appreciate it more than you know. To Roy, my friend, thanks so much for your positive words. I needed that. Finally to my love Cedrick, this was all made possible because you believed that my words needed to be shared with others. You are such an amazing man. Thank you baby!
Today is also special because its our anniversary!! Today marks six years that Cedrick and I stood before Father Joe in a small Catholic church in his hometown and professed our love and loyalty to each other in front of our family and friends. This journey has been so full of triumphs. Today on this blog, Cedrick and I will share what our marriage has meant to us.
Nine years ago I met this young man at a track in Lamar. After one date, I realized he wasn't my type. I thought I needed someone more rough around the edges plus I was in a weird phase in my life. I had just left my college and didn't have any direction. I ignored his phone calls for weeks until finally he quit calling. I forgot about him and moved on with my life. 2005 brought Hurricane Rita and me randomly bumping into Cedrick at Walmart as we were preparing to evacuate. We said our quick hellos and exchanged numbers. I didn't think anything of that encounter. My family and I evacuated to Lufkin to this amazing church (whose name I cant remember). We were there for about a week. I came back to Beaumont to a voicemail from Cedrick checking on me and my family. That was the start of our friendship. We would spend a year (2006) struggling with what to do with this growing love that was happening between us. I didn't want to love him. I thought I needed something different. He needed time. It was a struggle both emotionally and spiritually. Finally in April 2007, we decided to take a chance on us. We have been inseparable since. He was there as I buried my mother and as my sisters and me cried during my nephew's first day of school. He's seen me at my lowest and has been my loudest cheerleader when I'm pushing through a task. In November 2008, he asked me to be his wife. I knew from the moment our paths crossed, he would be in my life for a lifetime. I just didn't know in what capacity. He has taught me how to love from a spiritual place. Allow God to use you he used to tell me. I've made many mistakes in our marriage. There isn't a handbook to teach me how to be a good wife, that comes from experience and communication, something I still struggle with. What I do have is a man who sees through my flaws and accepts me where I am in life. What we have isn't like anyone else's. Its ours and we define our marriage on our own terms. I know that regardless of where I am individually in life, Cedrick will be right there, pushing me to give it my all. God knew what I would needand so He created a man in His likeness and his parents named him Cedrick. He is my person. Happy anniversary love, the keeper of my soul. Here's to many more beautiful years. I love you always...
Yes, for seven of those nine years I have reminded my wife about how she left me hanging, all dressed up, on what I thought was going to be our date night, only to realize that I put on my finest cologne only to get stood up. I know right; why would I even want to contact such a woman after leaving me hanging? It's true that we didn't have that instant spark when we first went out - maybe it was that smoky pool hall that I took her to that killed my first impression (do you remember Dixie's pool hall love? lol). Albeit, I couldn't ignore that bond between us. Even though we hadn't had the chance to get to know each other well, I still felt some kind of energy between us. Almost like I could see my reflection in our soul. I've heard that we fall for the love that we believe we deserve and when I was around Shelia I knew I was with someone who would love me for me. Most people would rather pick a rose out of the garden. Me, I'd rather watch it grow, and that's exactly what our love, our relationship, has been like. There's been thorns, there's been dirt, and there's been times when we've begged for rain but it was all worth the blossom my friends. Nine years later and I sit with my back to the TV and listen to my wife tell stories of her growing up with sisters and bothers, and the sacrifices her mother and grandmother made to make sure they were all alright. Even though they are not around I thank them both and her family for grooming such a fine woman and mother. She gave me the most beautiful gift of all, Caleb. I couldn't be a happier man to be here right now celebrating six years of love, lessons, and life as one body. I pray for many more years of being silly in the shower, keeping each other up late on work days, dreaming about our future, tagging along on rides to HEB, and how much life our son brings into our world. She's a very brave woman to share her inner thoughts with the world and I hope everyone sees the same beauty we see in family and marriage. Happy Sixth Anniversary love!
I hope through sharing our love, you will be inspired to wait for that person God has created just for you. You'll know it. It will feel right.